Tuesday, December 11, 2007

sea change

how am i?

lazarita is in the process of rising from the dead.

i've been in a very serious funk (mind you, not the funkadelic or funkalicious version) since finding out i'm pregnant. i had a hint of what depression must feel like and now know that's a foreign language i never even want to hear spoken, much less do an immersion learning schtick in.

i was a sad sack for a few weeks, y'all. plus i was nauseated every freaking day, which i think had a lot to do with the pall of gray-green that washed over the whole world. i didn't leave the house for several days straight, and only then when i absolutely had to. then i got the flu. which resolved itself into a sinus infection. YUM! that helped the nausea!

anyway...this week i am scrabbling up out of the grave and the first trimester, leaving fingernails and a shroud of tattered, snotty kleenex behind. sporting a baby bump and some very bodacious ta-tas, might i add.

i can handle smelling food be cooked, and then eat it and actually enjoy doing so. you just forget what a blessing that is until eating is a miserable torture. i am giggling. i can actually imagine having a baby. i've been dreaming about delivering her warm wet head into my hands after a lovely, short birth. i can agree with dh that we might actually be able to stay out of the poorhouse if we just keep plugging away, and that we can do it with home-grown, hand-made panache, as usual.

does that answer your question? you asked not a day too early i tell ya.

Saturday, December 08, 2007

a new beginning

we're expecting a new baby. in early to mid july.